Tuesday, April 8, 2014

The Importance of being Earnest

Hello to all my faithful, thanks for stopping by the blog and taking an interest in what I have to say. Truthfully, I'm not typically this honest with those outside my small circle, but lately, I feel as though I am the only person in my circle so I'm venturing out. At my core, I'm an insecure person who needs constant validation, probably because I've never felt good enough.

I know, sounds stupid right? Well, my issues go way back and I'm too old to learn new tricks, so here we are. Several years ago, before I knew shit about blogs and was the last person to get a MySpace account (just as everyone was moving to Facebook), I used to send out a newsletter filled with my deepest thoughts to my closest friends. Before that, I used to keep a journal. The newsletters were helpful to me because it gave me an opportunity to sort through my thoughts and emotions in the hopes of solving whatever dilemma I was experiencing at the time. My friends used to write me back with advice, affirmations, or simple compliments. It used to get me through the day. But friends move, they get busy, and time takes it's piece out of all of us. When we finally see one another, we don't talk about the bad because we'd rather celebrate our reunion. Soon, every person is an island and they've been there so long they don't bother putting out on SOS.

As a public personality I often feel like sharing myself is outside the bounds of good judgement. After all, people don't really want to know me, they want to know about the fiction I create. And for the most part, that's perfectly acceptable to me. However, the problem I am faced with currently is I can't create. I can't create because I'm living in the real world and its sort of kicking my ass right now.

I should be on cloud nine! The Dark Duet is still paying my rent (thank God), I have a graphic novel in the works, I've made the USA Today and the NYT, I get over 100 new likes on my Facebook page weekly, and in a few weeks I'll start touring - life should be fucking great! So why can't I 'get it up'?

My life isn't glamorous. I do the same things every day. I wake up and get my kids ready for school, drop them off, hit the gym, come home and clean my house, and then try to write something before I have to pick up my kids, do homework, start dinner, and try to be as attentive to my family as I can. In summation, I'm probably no different than everyone else. That said, I have to wonder if everyone else feels as lost and lonely as I often do.

People often ask where my characters come from and the truth is, they are pieces of me. They hurt deeply and hide it well. They fight tooth and nail for the things that matter. They see things in grey because they've learned there is no black or white. They lash out and inflict as much pain on others as they feel themselves. They're assholes. They're funny. They're willing to do anything to be loved, but terrified to love because they fully expect to find themselves alone one day. They don't live in the moment, but in a preconceived and bleak future. They self-destruct.

I'm self-destructing. For months, I've been hiding from my laptop, unable to write anything meaningful because it means I would have to open up a vein and bleed my truth. I don't want to write. I don't want to acknowledge that there are parts of me missing. Because, where did they go? How do I get them back? What stupid thing will I do to feel alive again? Who pays the price for my restlessness?

I spend all my free time with my face buried in books I didn't write. I ignore calls. I don't answer emails. I don't stock my fridge until I absolutely have to. I don't dream. I don't fantasize. I just read other people's words, letting them distract me. I'm ruining what could be a promising career because I cant. Fucking. Write!

I thought posting my teaser for Commitment would galvanize me into knocking out the chapters floating around in my brain. I wrote 500 words and then reached for my Kindle. Pathetic.

In this moment of lucidity, I've written this post for myself. I've put it out to you so that you can kick my fucking ass and hold me accountable. Remind me that what I'm doing is weak and I'm not allowed to wallow in self-pity. Boo-fucking-hoo, CJ! You have one damn thing you do well and that's write! You want to be worth something? You want to prove you've got what it takes? No one is going to give you anything; you have to take it! Stop being a whiny little bitch and put some damn words on paper because otherwise, you're just a sad mess of a girl who would rather read than live out her dreams. Stop being someone you can't stand. You want to be happy? Take your pills. You want to be an artist? Write.

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

CJ Roberts Work in Progress (WIP)

My Dearest Readers,
I know many of you have been wondering what I am working on, when it will be out, and if Agent Reed from Seduced in the Dark will be making an appearance. I finally feel confident enough to supply you with answers to these questions.

I'll begin by letting you know that I WILL NOT be publishing the Agent Reed spin-off this year. The fact of the matter is - I'm just not feeling it. I was, at one point, but life has a way of throwing you off course once you engage the cruise control. I realize many of you, including myself, are very disappointed by this news. However, my writing process is organic - I don't outline, I don't 'set things in stone' - I have to feel the material. I never know what I'm going to write when I sit down in front of my laptop and when I try to force it...I don't like what comes out. That said, I won't say there will never be an Agent Reed book - I'm saying he'll be worth the wait once he gets off his ass and into my dreams.

So what am I working on and when will it be out? Well, I'm working on a different kind of book. For over a year I have had an idea to write a novel about a married woman contemplating the murder of her husband.

Take a peek and let me know what you think. I'm dying to know.

Yours,
CJ

Preview: 

Expected Release 

1 OCT 2014



Friday, March 21, 2014

Writing Contest: Dark Duet Fan Fiction

As I posted on Facebook, I am a huge fanfic fan (that's right mofo's, I'm a fan of the fans. That's like, Fangirl Level: Ultimate Shit). Before you ask, no, I haven't written any (that I would post online, lol). I love fan fiction for a number of reasons, but mostly because it allows the fans to continue a story they love and share it with people who love it just as much. I started reading fanfic in the 90's after the original 90210 went off the air (I'm dating myself and I don't care!). Today, you can find me cruising the Wincest boards (mmmmmm, I <3 Sam/Dean).

Anyway, I have asked TotallyBooked, Aestas BookBlog, Literati Literature Lovers, and The Sub Club Books to help spread the word. Thanks ladies!

RULES: 
  1. Contest runs 3/21/2014 - 5/1/2014. Winners will be announced 5/15/2014.
  2. 18+ ONLY: Winners must provide proof of age/identity before being awarded any prizes.
  3. Contest is open world-wide, but void where prohibited or where U.S laws prevent.
  4. All entries must be written in English.
  5. Multiple entries are acceptable, but each person may only win one prize.
  6. Entries must have a minimum of 1,000 words and a maximum of 10,000 (give or take a few hundred on the max end).
  7. Stories MAY NOT include rape for titillation (dubcon is ok - email if you have questions) or pedophilia. 
  8. All participants agree that entry into the contest implies consent for CJ Roberts, Neurotica Books LLC. to use participants entry for promotional reasons, including, but not limited to the addition of the work to any bonus materials for THE DARK DUET SERIES, in perpetuity. Participants name will be displayed prominently as the author of their own work.
  9. It is expressly understood that participation in this contest is not to be construed to constitute a partnership between the participant and Neurotica Books LLC. nor shall the participant be deemed to be an employee of Neurotica Books LLC. Participant agrees to pay all taxes on prizes received where required.
  10. CJ Roberts reserves the right alter any part of this contest without notice, except where no legal reason exists to withhold prizes from winners.
  11. All participants must set up an account with Fanfiction.net and agree with their terms of service. This is where the stories will be posted. Their site auto-protects from copy/paste theft.
  12. All participants must post the following at the top of each 'chapter' of their submission:

CAPTIVE IN THE DARK, SEDUCED IN THE DARK, EPILOGUE: THE DARK DUET, together known as THE DARK DUET SERIES and/or the characters within, are the sole intellectual property of CJ Roberts, Neurotica Books LLC. This work is not for profit and is intended for entertainment purposes only as part of a writing contest hosted by CJ Roberts, Neurotica Books LLC.

CATEGORIES:
  1. It's all about the nookie: Heavy on sex and light on plot. Make us sweat!
  2. In the family way: Caleb & Livvie & a baby.
  3. Multiverse: Alternate universe (AU) fanfic. Everything is the same except for oooone little (big) thing.
  4. Supernatural: AU with monsters etc.
  5. Freestyle: Anything goes. 
PRIZES:
Grand Prize: 1) Editing, Cover, and Review services on an original manuscript. CJ Roberts will pay to have your original manuscript professionally edited and cover designed and provide you with a review along with a spotlight on her blog, Facebook, and Twitter. OR  any reasonable request made to CJ Roberts in lieu of editing, cover, and review services. 2)Inclusion of your Dark Duet fanfic in her bonus materials with links to your original work and/or website. 3) An autographed first edition of her upcoming Captive in the Dark graphic novel upon release. 

Runner Up: 1) An autographed first edition of her upcoming Captive in the Dark graphic novel upon release. 2) Inclusion of your Dark Duet fanfic in her bonus materials with links to your original work and/or website. 3) $50 gift card of your choosing.

Bronze: 1) $25 gift card of your choosing. 2) Autographed cover poster. 3) Inclusion of your Dark Duet fanfic in her bonus materials with links to your original work and/or website.

VOTING:
Readers will be asked to nominate their favorite fanfic's HERE. Votes count, but CJ Roberts has final say on winners. 



Monday, March 10, 2014

Vote for Your Favorite Artist

After much deliberation, I have narrowed down the artist for THE DARK DUET SERIES (Captive in the Dark, Seduced in the Dark, and Epilogue: The Dark Duet) to two very talented artists that I felt best represented the series. However, in classic Highlander style, "There can only be one". Help me choose!






Monday, March 3, 2014

Happy MAKE ME Release Day!!!

I'm very excited to announce the release of MAKE ME: Twelve Tales of Dark Desire. To celebrate, every author has signed up to host a couple of hours for the next 24hours on our Make Me Release Party page. Join the event to win prizes, chat with your favorite authors, or get to know some new ones! What I love about this anthology is that includes NYT and USA Today bestselling authors AS WELL AS other indie authors who are just as talented but haven't had the exposure they deserve until now. I'm looking forward to reading some of these books for the first time.

BUY LINKS:




For the incredible price of just $2.99 you get 12 full-length novels that include: 

Pam Godwin - Beneath the Burn
   
 Skye Warren - Wanderlust
   
 Claire Thompson - Enslaved
   
Cari Silverwood - Take Me Break Me
   
Annabel Joseph - Comfort Object
   
Aleatha Romig - Consequences
   
Shoshanna Evers - The Man Who Holds the Whip
   
Annika Martin - The Hostage Bargain
   
Jasmine Haynes - Take Your Pleasure
   
Eliza Gayle - Play With Me
   
Pepper Winters - Tears of Tess
   
CJ Roberts - Captive in the Dark

AND...because you're greedy little readers, once you've finished with MAKE ME (and the sequels to the series you started), pick up RIDING DESIRE. It's another great boxset for 99cents. You're welcome book whores. We love you so goooooood.

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Giveaway Time! (Again)

Guess what?

No, seriously...guess.

That was fast! Are you psychic?

What? I just put it in the title...you'd think I'd be better about giving away the answer.

But speaking of giving things away...

I have some pretty cool stuff happening and I'd like to share it with you.

First, I want to thank all of you for being the great fans you are. My ego has taken some serious hits the last few months, but whenever I feel like giving up because maybe I've said everything I had to say, or believe I'm not as talented as those getting TV, movie, or publishing deals, or the people that are supposed to help me get my career moving completely ignore me - there's you. There's ALWAYS you!!! You're always there to pick me up and remind me why I started writing at all: because I love it.

Ok, enough of that. On to the free shit.

I am giving away 1 ebook copy of Shades of Words. This anthology features 17 incredible authors and has all-new and exclusive material you won't read anywhere else. Best of all, ALL PROCEEDS GO TO BREAST CANCER RESEARCH. We've already made the Top 100 in the Romance category. Thank you!! My contribution is Determined to Obey. Click HERE for a sample.




Next, 5 ebook copies of Make Me. 12 full-length novels featuring all the dubcon you can stand! Captive in the Dark is included in the anthology. This is a $40 value currently available for pre-order on Amazon for the obscene price of 99cents.

Pre-Order Now


Finally, a grand price of both ebooks AND 1 audio-book version of Epilogue: The Dark Duet. YES ladies and gents, it's out! Take a listen.



Special Note: You'll notice that liking my friend Julie Prestsater is one of the requirements to enter. She needs the likes and HUGE congratulations. I won't spoil her surprise, but you should get to know her now before her star leaves our orbit. I LOVE YOU, JULIE!

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Merry Christmas - let's be Christ-Like

Hello!
Well, I suck at posting to my blog on time, but my heart is in the right place. Anyway, I'll get to it. I have had a wild and emotional year. Most of 2013 sucked hard, but it's looking up! I am truly blessed. My children are blessed. So blessed I can't help but think of all those who aren't.

I am giving away $5000 to charity this season. Broken up as follows:

$3000 - School programs in my community
$500 - Wellspring - We are going there tonight to spend time with the kids and hand out goodies. If you're in the area. Come down! We will be there from 4-6pm.
$500 - Skateistan - A wonderful program dedicated to empowering young women. Here's a video
$500 - The Malala Fund - A 16y/o girl with the strength of conviction to stand up to the Taliban. Here's a video

I have $500 left to give. Please post a link to one of your favorite charities and I will donate a portion of the remaining funds to your charity. Must be a non-profit. Thank you!!



GIVEAWAY!!!


Also, to thank all of you for being so amazing to me. I will be flying one lucky person to one of my book signings in 2014 (up to $500)! U.S. Only. International winner can receive $300 giftcard to Amazon. U.S. winner may also choose giftcard prize in lieu of airfare. Winner must have own hotel accommodations and pay any additional airline fees (baggage etc). Winner will be announced January 1st, 2014. COME PARTY WITH ME!